Are we there yet?

Two and a half weeks to go till the due date!!! OMG.

Suddenly it's all become a little harder- moving around, doing things just requires so much more effort. My blood pressure continues to be very erratic but it least the elevations aren't constant. I think we have everything now (probably too much to be honest). The pram arrives tomorrow so I've got some practice time on that. I'm still to master the baby carrier although Nellie assures me that once mastered it becomes second nature.

I've been quite teary the last few days - guess the hormones are going into overdrive. I'm really missing my Mum and Dad even though both have been gone for many years, not to mention my Nan. Dad never got to see any of us married off let alone have kids, Mum got to see her first three grandchildren. Had my MIL and FIL up for the last few days, they are lovely but there is still a void whre my parents should be. I hope they are watching from somewhere!

There is so much anticipation, which is bringing with it so much self doubt. Everyone tells you that you that you will manage but again it doesn't stop the negative thoughts arising - the 'what ifs?' What if I can't cope, what if it drives a wedge in mine and HBs relationship. I've been to my first Bumps and Babes session. I sat wide eyed watching these women with their babies (6-22 weeks) so confident and at ease with the little creatures wondering if that will ever be me! But like a true Gemini there is the other side of me that spends time imagining how wonderful everything is going to be, watching Blobby grow up, totally different family holidays, seeing Blobby with HB (my favourite daydream is imagining HB's face when he holds Blobby for the first time!)

Last week I had a very nice day of indulgence. In the morning i went to the spa and had a facial and makeup put on. In the afternoon HB had arranged for a photographer to come to the house to take some shots of my belly. We'd tried but the result weren't very good (a combination of the subject - me, and HB's skills a s a photographer!) Should get the results this week. It was important to me to capture this - I've loved being pregnant and I wanted to memorialise it while I could - it won't happen again!

I've also been going to the pool to do some stretching in the water - it's amazing how much the water helps - it's the only place you can move around and be totally comfortable. I just hope the blood pressure behaves itself so that I can labour in water.

So - will Blobby be early, late or on time? I can't help but think it will be slightly early, but hopefully only slightly! I've got Christmas to arrange. And I can't even contemplate him being late - that will really mess up all of the planning! But really, there is only one thing I can be 100% sure of, and that is I have absolutely no control over when Blobby will choose to make an appearance so worrying about messing up plans, is a waste of a worry!